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Greetings

So, the results are back. 'Are you happy with your results?' people ask me. Well, I'm not screaming madly and running around in circles, so I guess I'm ok with them. But neither am I running around with a funny hat on my head, laughing, with a bottle of something sweet and bubbly in my hand.

I passed - that is good. Did I do as well as I wanted to? Hell no. Do I ever do as well as I wanted to? Hell no. Will I ever do as well as I wanted to? Who knows...

Should I have studied more? Not sure that question is relevant - I don't think I could have done more without having a complete breakdown of some sort. By the time exams roll around, I am so tired and annoyed with everything, that it's a struggle to care about exams. 

Do I have a new study plan for this semester to up my academic game? Yes ... kind of.

Did I have one last semester too? Yes ... I did.

Did it work? Umm ... yes? No ... well, yes, it kind of did: I have changed some of my strategies and that has helped. But it's also made quite clear that there are just some things I can't do better at - rote memorization being one. And that bugs me: why can't I memorize like some people I know? Give me context and I'm fine but straight out memorization ... nope, not happening. This shows up clearly as I do very well on essays that require information to be presented in a certain context. And just as clearly is the fact that I still have trouble reciting the pluperfect subjunctive active of (insert Latin verb of choice). 

But now that I know that this is an issue, I will do my best to work around it. And come November and exam time, I will be struggling and desperate for a break. And I will get my results and (please refer to start of post; thank you).

I'm off to celebrate my marks - be they brilliant or not